F – Faltering Feelings

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“Am I doing this right?”

It’s a question I don’t always say out loud.

But it’s there. In the middle of a normal day. In between small decisions. In quiet moments no one else notices.

“I think I am…”

And then—”Or maybe I’m not?”

I pause. I replay something I just did. Something I just said. Something I chose in a moment that didn’t feel like a big deal—until it did !!!!

“Why am I overthinking this?” “Should I have done it differently?” “Was that enough?”

Motherhood doesn’t always come with loud doubts as it doesn’t comes with a manual.

Sometimes, it’s this. A quiet back-and-forth. A conference that doesn’t seem to end. The mind is always in a meeting room.

“I know I love him.” “That part is easy.” “But why do I feel so unsure sometimes?”

And that’s when I notice it—My feelings haven’t disappeared.

They’ve just… faltered.

Not broken.

Not gone.

Just standing there, unsure of their next step.

“I used to be more certain.” “I used to trust myself more.” Or maybe… I didn’t.

Maybe I’m just noticing it now.

Maybe this is what becoming looks like—

Not steady.

Not perfect.

But real.

“I’m learning.”

“I’m trying.”

“I’m still here.”

And maybe that’s enough. Today, I don’t need all the answers. It’s a journey of unlearning.

I just need to keep showing up—even when my feelings hesitate.

Even when they falter.

One alphabet at a time, we are growing together.

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