N-Numbness and Noise

Why are you so quiet? Today you have been lost!! How come you have a headache; you hardly talk now a days!!!

Sometime back used to get questions from people around me. Couldn’t answer as didn’t have one. Inside though I was living in a market place….sounds familiar?????

“There is no such thing as a stressful situation. Only stressful reactions.”

I read that once…and paused. Because if that’s true, then what I’ve been living with is not the world outside—but the noise within. It doesn’t shout. It hums.

Constantly.

A voice that questions,

eplays,

corrects,

judges.

“You could have done better.”

“You should have handled it differently.”

“You’re falling behind.”

And the strangest part?

No one else hears it.

“The mind is a powerful instrument. If you don’t take charge of it, it will run your life.” Sadhguru

Maybe that’s what happened. I didn’t take charge. I just… listened. To every thought. Every doubt. Every imagined expectation. Until the noise became normal.

And somewhere in between constant thinking and constant doing— I stopped feeling.

Not suddenly.

Not completely.

Just enough to notice that something was missing. Joy didn’t land the same way. Rest didn’t feel complete. Even silence felt crowded.

And that’s when I understood—

Numbness isn’t emptiness.

It’s overflow.

Too many thoughts.

Too many voices.

Too much noise.

“The problem is not the noise outside, but the unrest within.”

That line stayed. Because maybe I’ve been trying to fix everything around me— when all along, it was this inner noise that needed softening.

Not silencing.

Not fighting.

Just… not believing everything it says. Today, “N” feels different. It doesn’t feel heavy. It feels like awareness. That I can step back. That I can choose what to hold on to. That I don’t have to react to every thought that passes through me.

Maybe numbness is not the end.

Maybe it’s a pause—before clarity returns.

And maybe peace…is not the absence of noise—but the ability to not be ruled by it.

And slowly Silence is returning inside while I am getting more active outside.

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